Reveal...

Bahamut · 09-15-2001, 12:20 AM

Well i would just like to share my lil insight on this forum... well it was more intended for older members.. coz they know my one big giant girl prob... actually, you are allw elcome... but don't tell me to narrate the entire story!!!

Oki, so you guys know my prom date right? Well, I just learned how she writes... anyway, I realized something that maybe is the epitome of failure in my book....

It is simple... I was always there for her, I always called her before, it was so perfect and all... I even called her like in this lil retreat we had last year... (Sept. 22) and I was surprised to even remember such a thing! I mean it just came! When my granma had her wake (she died last October... so almost a year now)... time... anyway, I used to call her... ARGH! It is making me angry!!! So moving on, everything was perfect, and she said I love you last christmas right? Well poor me I had a very big insecurity problem that could have been the turning point... and theprom... was just too late... too late...

So I have come to this very painful realization on my part... correct me if I am wrong here... It is that I never made her feel special or at least, good about herself... or at least all the time in our friendship... I can say that our friendship is over now... for some reason... so... that is my greatest flaw... I can talk, I can make people laugh, I may the perfectguy every girl is looking for, but I am not because of this... because of this...

So I was just thinking here if I ever made feel someone special? did I make you feel so pretty or bright or hot amidst all the troubles? Well, probably not, but I am not here crying my ass of about this... I accepted it, and I just want to know if I made here feel at least special... at least a day orso...

Ryan

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Heya! It's just me, Bahamut!

Sazerac · 09-15-2001, 12:24 AM

You have been a friend to me, Ryan, and for that, you made me feel special, and I consider you to be special. You have so much heart to take to the world. Never let that light die.

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Albromor · 09-15-2001, 12:37 AM

Here is a GREAT rule: I am not in this world to make people happy and conversly people aren't in this world to make me happy. Let me apply this in a personal way. My wife adds happiness to my life but she isn't responsible to make me happy. I can add happiness to my wife's life, but I am not responsible to make her happy. In other words, in order to have a healthy relationship with another I must have a good sense of self-worth. I must be healthy to have healthy relationships. When anyone lives by the understanding that the "other" in my life will complete me, well then that person is in BIG trouble because then the locus of control is outside oneself resulting in an enslavement to others. When we put our happiness in the hands of others we give these others tremendous power over us. When we demand people make us feel special it means the focus is really very self-centered. Truly the very best relationships are friendships. That alone should have been enough for your girl.

Bahamut · 09-15-2001, 12:43 AM

It always starts from what's within huh? Hmm... That was the other problem before.. although I had a really bad sense of self-worth before... iit never showed onto her... hmm... well... things are turning around good point Albromor! Thank you...

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Heya! It's just me, Bahamut!

Aelia Jusa · 09-15-2001, 12:55 AM

I feel for you Bahamut, though we've never met. I too have a huge self-esteem problem. I'm 20 and I've never had a boyfriend, how pathetic am I, right? But now I just think, well it'll happen eventually and in the meantime if you can make yourself happy then that's all that matters. Actually that's all that ever matters because you can't rely on others to make your happiness. And I'm sure you made her feel special, but teenage girls are silly and self-involved, I know, I was one not long ago, they don't think about others too much.

SSJ4Sephiroth · 09-15-2001, 12:58 AM

well Bahamut, i have a huge self-esteem problem too. ive been after this girl for about a year now, and ive never gotten the nerve to even talk to her. how pathetic i am... but you have to find ways to make yourself happy, because in the end, if you can make yourself happy thats all that matters. someone else making you happy too is just something on the side.

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It's simple. Once the Planet is hurt, it gathers Spirit Energy to heal the injury. The amount of energy gathered depends on the size of the injury...What would happen if there was an injury that threatened the very life of the Planet? Think how much energy would be gathered! Ha, ha, ha. And at the center of that injury, wil be me. All that boundless energy will be mine. By merging with the energy of the Planet, I will be come a new life form, a new existence. Melding with the Planet, I will cease to exist as I am now. Only to be reborn as a 'God' to rule over every living soul.

Super Sephiroth, slayer of the Uber Fluffy, and battle co-ordionator and defender of the HADB clan.

Diplomacy is all and well, but HADB is better!

Aelia Jusa · 09-15-2001, 01:00 AM

OMG Sephiroth, are we sympatico or what?

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Goddess and Sorceress of the HADB, and her sidekick Pig

SSJ4Sephiroth · 09-15-2001, 01:05 AM

well, i guess clan members think alike. or is that great minds? well in this case its the same thing!

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It's simple. Once the Planet is hurt, it gathers Spirit Energy to heal the injury. The amount of energy gathered depends on the size of the injury...What would happen if there was an injury that threatened the very life of the Planet? Think how much energy would be gathered! Ha, ha, ha. And at the center of that injury, wil be me. All that boundless energy will be mine. By merging with the energy of the Planet, I will be come a new life form, a new existence. Melding with the Planet, I will cease to exist as I am now. Only to be reborn as a 'God' to rule over every living soul.

Super Sephiroth, slayer of the Uber Fluffy, and battle co-ordionator and defender of the HADB clan.

Diplomacy is all and well, but HADB is better!

Aelia Jusa · 09-15-2001, 01:08 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by SSJ4Sephiroth:
well, i guess clan members think alike. or is that great minds? well in this case its the same thing!

In this case I think it's losers think alike

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Goddess and Sorceress of the HADB, and her sidekick Pig

SSJ4Sephiroth · 09-15-2001, 01:11 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Aelia Jusa:
In this case I think it's losers think alike

i like mine better, but yours works too

. makes us sound more importiant than we really are

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It's simple. Once the Planet is hurt, it gathers Spirit Energy to heal the injury. The amount of energy gathered depends on the size of the injury...What would happen if there was an injury that threatened the very life of the Planet? Think how much energy would be gathered! Ha, ha, ha. And at the center of that injury, wil be me. All that boundless energy will be mine. By merging with the energy of the Planet, I will be come a new life form, a new existence. Melding with the Planet, I will cease to exist as I am now. Only to be reborn as a 'God' to rule over every living soul.

Super Sephiroth, slayer of the Uber Fluffy, and battle co-ordionator and defender of the HADB clan.

Diplomacy is all and well, but HADB is better!

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09-15-2001, 12:20 AM	#1
Bahamut Iron Throne Cult Join Date: March 12, 2001 Location: Manila, Philippines Age: 39 Posts: 4,864	Well i would just like to share my lil insight on this forum... well it was more intended for older members.. coz they know my one big giant girl prob... actually, you are allw elcome... but don't tell me to narrate the entire story!!! Oki, so you guys know my prom date right? Well, I just learned how she writes... anyway, I realized something that maybe is the epitome of failure in my book.... It is simple... I was always there for her, I always called her before, it was so perfect and all... I even called her like in this lil retreat we had last year... (Sept. 22) and I was surprised to even remember such a thing! I mean it just came! When my granma had her wake (she died last October... so almost a year now)... time... anyway, I used to call her... ARGH! It is making me angry!!! So moving on, everything was perfect, and she said I love you last christmas right? Well poor me I had a very big insecurity problem that could have been the turning point... and theprom... was just too late... too late... So I have come to this very painful realization on my part... correct me if I am wrong here... It is that I never made her feel special or at least, good about herself... or at least all the time in our friendship... I can say that our friendship is over now... for some reason... so... that is my greatest flaw... I can talk, I can make people laugh, I may the perfectguy every girl is looking for, but I am not because of this... because of this... So I was just thinking here if I ever made feel someone special? did I make you feel so pretty or bright or hot amidst all the troubles? Well, probably not, but I am not here crying my ass of about this... I accepted it, and I just want to know if I made here feel at least special... at least a day orso... Ryan ------------------ Heya! It's just me, Bahamut!

09-15-2001, 12:24 AM	#2
Sazerac Ironworks Moderator Join Date: January 7, 2001 Location: Monroe, LA Age: 60 Posts: 7,387	You have been a friend to me, Ryan, and for that, you made me feel special, and I consider you to be special. You have so much heart to take to the world. Never let that light die. ------------------

09-15-2001, 12:37 AM	#3
Albromor Mephistopheles Join Date: June 13, 2001 Location: Northfield, NJ USA Posts: 1,417	Here is a GREAT rule: I am not in this world to make people happy and conversly people aren't in this world to make me happy. Let me apply this in a personal way. My wife adds happiness to my life but she isn't responsible to make me happy. I can add happiness to my wife's life, but I am not responsible to make her happy. In other words, in order to have a healthy relationship with another I must have a good sense of self-worth. I must be healthy to have healthy relationships. When anyone lives by the understanding that the "other" in my life will complete me, well then that person is in BIG trouble because then the locus of control is outside oneself resulting in an enslavement to others. When we put our happiness in the hands of others we give these others tremendous power over us. When we demand people make us feel special it means the focus is really very self-centered. Truly the very best relationships are friendships. That alone should have been enough for your girl.

09-15-2001, 12:43 AM	#4
Bahamut Iron Throne Cult Join Date: March 12, 2001 Location: Manila, Philippines Age: 39 Posts: 4,864	It always starts from what's within huh? Hmm... That was the other problem before.. although I had a really bad sense of self-worth before... iit never showed onto her... hmm... well... things are turning around good point Albromor! Thank you... ------------------ Heya! It's just me, Bahamut!

09-15-2001, 12:55 AM	#5
Aelia Jusa Iron Throne Cult Join Date: August 23, 2001 Location: Brisbane, Australia Age: 42 Posts: 4,867	I feel for you Bahamut, though we've never met. I too have a huge self-esteem problem. I'm 20 and I've never had a boyfriend, how pathetic am I, right? But now I just think, well it'll happen eventually and in the meantime if you can make yourself happy then that's all that matters. Actually that's all that ever matters because you can't rely on others to make your happiness. And I'm sure you made her feel special, but teenage girls are silly and self-involved, I know, I was one not long ago, they don't think about others too much.

09-15-2001, 12:58 AM	#6
SSJ4Sephiroth Beholder Join Date: May 4, 2001 Location: The Outside Looking In Age: 37 Posts: 4,361	well Bahamut, i have a huge self-esteem problem too. ive been after this girl for about a year now, and ive never gotten the nerve to even talk to her. how pathetic i am... but you have to find ways to make yourself happy, because in the end, if you can make yourself happy thats all that matters. someone else making you happy too is just something on the side. ------------------ It's simple. Once the Planet is hurt, it gathers Spirit Energy to heal the injury. The amount of energy gathered depends on the size of the injury...What would happen if there was an injury that threatened the very life of the Planet? Think how much energy would be gathered! Ha, ha, ha. And at the center of that injury, wil be me. All that boundless energy will be mine. By merging with the energy of the Planet, I will be come a new life form, a new existence. Melding with the Planet, I will cease to exist as I am now. Only to be reborn as a 'God' to rule over every living soul. Super Sephiroth, slayer of the Uber Fluffy, and battle co-ordionator and defender of the HADB clan. Diplomacy is all and well, but HADB is better!

09-15-2001, 01:00 AM	#7
Aelia Jusa Iron Throne Cult Join Date: August 23, 2001 Location: Brisbane, Australia Age: 42 Posts: 4,867	OMG Sephiroth, are we sympatico or what? ------------------ Goddess and Sorceress of the HADB, and her sidekick Pig

09-15-2001, 01:05 AM	#8
SSJ4Sephiroth Beholder Join Date: May 4, 2001 Location: The Outside Looking In Age: 37 Posts: 4,361	well, i guess clan members think alike. or is that great minds? well in this case its the same thing! ------------------ It's simple. Once the Planet is hurt, it gathers Spirit Energy to heal the injury. The amount of energy gathered depends on the size of the injury...What would happen if there was an injury that threatened the very life of the Planet? Think how much energy would be gathered! Ha, ha, ha. And at the center of that injury, wil be me. All that boundless energy will be mine. By merging with the energy of the Planet, I will be come a new life form, a new existence. Melding with the Planet, I will cease to exist as I am now. Only to be reborn as a 'God' to rule over every living soul. Super Sephiroth, slayer of the Uber Fluffy, and battle co-ordionator and defender of the HADB clan. Diplomacy is all and well, but HADB is better!

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