You may remember me...

[jabidas]

Hey RudeDwag I hope things get better for you and welcome back.

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[Tobbin]

Welcome back Rude, wasn't the same without you. Hope that you can get healed up ok though. Keep us up to date though, k?

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Death Waits 4 U ALL

[adam warlock]

RUDEDAWG!
I certainly do remember you! hey I even mentioned you in the 'missing people' thread!
glad you're still ok!

as for the condition... um... is it treatable?

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HEY! get away from my homepage!!
You know who and what I am... what are you going to do about it?

[Mouse]

Good to hear from you, sorry to hear your news - keep in touch.

All the best.

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Mouse

[This message has been edited by Mouse (edited 09-29-2001).]

[Grand-Ranger]

RudeDawg!!

Of corse we rember you!! So good to have you back.. I wish I could have replyed earler.

You wear badly missed.

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So if in the forest look behind you, because that where the ranger is going to be

Grand-Jester of Laghing Hyenas
Messenger of the Emerald Dragon

May a pregnant yak chew on your ear for all eternity.
A guitar solo is to a guitarsist is what a palette is too a painter.
"...But I look at my self as a fragile, inteligent,human being. But there is a clown inside that comes and messes it up everytime" -Jim Morrison

[Cloudbringer]

Rudy,

You have my icq- I'm still willing to talk.


Cloudy

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Raindancer of the Laughing Hyenas Clan
CloudDragon of the OHF
Storm-Queen
Raven's Cloud
StormCloud of the Black Knight: Heart Mind Soul Forever
"To sleep, perchance to dream..."

[Jerome]

Runedawg,

I've never had the chance to meet you, but from the many people here who've missed you i've been told that you're a great person. You've got all the hopes that this fifteen year-od can muster that things improve for you.

Be strong,
Jerome.


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[RudeDawg]

I just got to another public kiosk. (I'm at a mall. Earlier I was at a library, and it was closing.)

First, thank you everyone for your sentiments.

Second, Cloudy... since I can only access the Ether from public terminals for now, ICQ or MSN is not an option for me... I can still check email sporadically. To you, SweetCloudQueen, I owe the largest apology. I should have at least explained before I pulled my disappearing act. Mea Culpa. Por favor, disculpame...

OK... let's get this out of the way. I don't want to dwell on this, nor do I ask for sympathy or pity. PLEASE, I'm not very gracious when people treat me differently because of my health. That was one of the main reasons I stayed away...

Short story on my professional life... The company I worked for basically lied to me, and falsified documentation regarding my liscence to practice. I was given a choice by the state Board of Health to step aside and reapply for my liscence next year. Belive me, it was a LENIENT ruling for me personally. My former employer was judged accountable. (score ONE for the good guys)

While this was happening, I left my circumstances get away from me. As some of you know, I have had to undergo medical therapy for clinical depression before, after blaming myself for my mother's death. I let it take me again. And so, I closed myself off from EVERYONE. I AM NOT PROUD of the way I've acted. Believe me, I treated my RL family and friends worse. At the moment, my father and brother do not know when I am, nor do they have any way to contact me. I decided to remove the options of trying to "help" me with my health, so I have turned our communication "one way", I'm writing them via e- and snail- mail.

I have touched on my physical condition as a child before. Long-story-short; I was paralyzed for 2 years from my chest down, due to a genetic condition. Years of therapy later, I was able to become a competitive swimmer. But, I always knew I still had this physical condition.

In the last few years, it's been coming back. (yes, this knowlege also pushed me into the depression.) I'm prepared for it, but it still scares me.

Several weeks ago, while taking a pre-employment physical, I was sent to the emergency room, and placed on an IV overnight. The next morning, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. For most folks, it IS contollable. With my other circumstances, the complications for BOTH situations are multiplied.

It was childish of me to cut out friends. I'm sorry. AND, I hope y'all don't think I've re-established contact for sympathy. I just NEEDED to explain.

Thanks for reading, and I hove y'all let me ease back in with you.

The Rudest one of All....

PS.... Where'd my .sig image go? I changed the addy according to the instructions on the front page... Anyone interested in hosting a scarred, marred, and charred Wild-Elf Ranger?

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The RudeDawg, known in these Forgotten Realms as Perin LightEyes
"Let them come, Let them ALL come."
-"Ender says, 'The enemy is down.' "

[Cloudbringer]

Rudy,

My emails: cloudy@nycap.rr.com
simbul@hotmail.com (this is msn too and bourbon may use all,incl icq if needed)

I know it's not easy to say what you did, especially publicly. So I'm still here, and checking my mail for a few hours tonight. I check it daily for the most part, as you know. And you should know, you and your situation have been on my mind and in my prayers. Welcome back, Rudy, welcome back.

Cloudy



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Raindancer of the Laughing Hyenas Clan
CloudDragon of the OHF
Storm-Queen
Raven's Cloud
StormCloud of the Black Knight: Heart Mind Soul Forever
"To sleep, perchance to dream..."

[Tobbin]

I can host your image if you need Rude. And sorry to hear about everything. Glad that you came back though.

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Death Waits 4 U ALL