Silver Cheetah

[Yorick]

I am grieved to hear this Teresa. I am glad you have appeared to heal from this, and hope and pray the healing continues. Love you 'old bird'.

Hugh

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I am the walrus!.... er, no hang on....

A fair dinkum laughing Hyena!

[250]

Originally posted by Fljotsdale: WHAT reaction to you?! Hey? Hey? LOL! Seriously, I'm very fond of you Yorick! But, yes, I DO overreact to the way you express yourself, sometimes - just as you do to me! Yes, it is partly due to 17 years of physical and emotional abuse from my husband. I was living a breakdown that no-one was aware of for much of that time, not even medical practitioners, because I was a good actress. I spent all my time in 'public' being a 'nice, gentle person'. My children suffered from my hair-trigger frustrated anger though. But it wasn't just my husband. My childhood had been pretty dreadful, too, in many ways, though I have some good memories. Suffice to say that I was mentally and sexually abused by my brother for for several years, as well as being attacked and abused by him and some of his friends when I was only about 8. My parents didn't believe me, so I never told about the later stuff. And I was always bully-fodder at school. Enough of this! No-one bullies me now. The old bird is too tough, lol!

how did you deal with this? I mean... sigh... did you realize life can be different on your own? of course.. what am I thinking. I am thinking, can outside help really do something different?

[Fljotsdale]

Originally posted by Yorick: I am grieved to hear this Teresa. I am glad you have appeared to heal from this, and hope and pray the healing continues. Love you 'old bird'. Hugh

No worries, cobber! I'm pretty much ok, now - unless someone presses the wrong button, lol! There is a certain tone of voice, a certain way that people express themselves, that has me reacting strongly, but most of the time I can count to ten and control it. The childhood stuff - well... I guess it has affected the person I am, but I forgave and stopped hurting YEARS ago, and I am happy with who I am now, so that is ok.

Giggle! Talking about pressing the wrong button... When I was a JW, a friend and I were going from door to door talking to people about the bible, and we met this one man who had the same way of talking as my husband. Before Molly (my friend) knew what was happening, I had reacted to this guy. I wanted to pound him into the floor! Happily, Molly assesed the situation, grabbed me, and almost dragged me away, with this guy yelling after me and me yelling back! Took me a couple of minutes to cool down, lol! Never did it again, though. That taught me to keep my mouth shut and walk away when necessary! I had never done that in public before, and didn't know I even could.

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[Fljotsdale]

Originally posted by 250: how did you deal with this? I mean... sigh... did you realize life can be different on your own? of course.. what am I thinking. I am thinking, can outside help really do something different?

How did I deal with it? Well - You just have to keep on living, don't you? We didn't go in much for psychotherapy when I was a young woman. You just got on with things and muddled through as best you could.
I became a JW, as well. They were the first people who showed me warmth and affection - and they were strangers when I first met them. They did a lot for me, emotionally; gave me some confidence, gave me something to believe in, gave me some love.
The thing that people need most is love. It is the most important thing in our lives. A person who grows up feeling unloved is screwed up and unbalanced. That person will do anything to get love and approval; and if they fall into the wrong hands they can finish up in a helluva lot of trouble. I was lucky. I fell into good hands with the JW's. I wouldn't be who I am if they hadn't been there for me.
The rest of the healing I did for myself - with a few kicks in the butt from my children, to make sure I went the right way,lol!

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Dubbed Queen of the Illuminati by Diogenes.

[This message has been edited by Fljotsdale (edited 10-14-2001).]

[Silver Cheetah]

Originally posted by Fljotsdale: How did I deal with it? Well - You just have to keep on living, don't you? We didn't go in much for psychotherapy when I was a young woman. You just got on with things and muddled through as best you could. I became a JW, as well. They were the first people who showed me warmth and affection - and they were strangers when I first met them. They did a lot for me, emotionally; gave me some confidence, gave me something to believe in, gave me some love. The thing that people need most is love. It is the most important thing in our lives. A person who grows up feeling unloved is screwed up and unbalanced. That person will do anything to get love and approval; and if they fall into the wrong hands they can finish up in a helluva lot of trouble. I was lucky. I fell into good hands with the JW's. I wouldn't be who I am if they hadn't been there for me. The rest of the healing I did for myself - with a few kicks in the butt from my children, to make sure I went the right way,lol!

Always happy to do butt kicking whenever requested, mommykins! Love you lots btw xxxxxxx



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