A Few Thoughts on my Life...

[SSJ4Sephiroth]

and it's Current State of Affairs [img]smile.gif[/img] .

Well, I'll begin by saying that I must be the most socially unacceptable person in the state of Oklahoma. For starters, everything that has been declared off-limits and evil has been pursued by me. These things include my kind of music (punk rock ), Dungeons and Dragons, internet relationships of any kind, exceptionally long hair, spiked clothing (my jacket, mainly), and speaking my mind to everyone. Among the beer-guzzling masses that make up the majority of my classmates, none of them can even try to claim interest in anyone outside of the city limits, let alone pledge loyalty to anyone besides themselves and a few of their friends. Also, I'm likley the only one out of the whole group that's set aside a likely goal and profession for myself. While others are obsessed with their unlikely careers in professional sports (they're not that good, I just don't have the heart to tell them), I'm sitting at my desk writing away on my second creation while waiting for word on my first to get back to me.
All my life, I've been told how evil and satanic D&D is, and I guess I've just turned around and laughed at them since I'm the new dungeon master of the first official D&D club in Sallisaw. [img]smile.gif[/img] Works for me though, the only ones who ever told me how evil it was are the ones trying to keep me from doing anything online other than talking with my foolish classmates that want to talk about little more than how hot a girl is (other things to young ladies [thats what they are] that looks, boys ), getting drunk, fighting (I swear if I hear "I'm gonna kick your ass!" one more time at school I'm gonna scream!), and how much they think I'm a Nazi (how many times do I have to bloody say that I'm NOT?!). Obviously, there's a conflict of interest between me and my family, who are the ones telling me about the 'evils of the internet'. I posted about this particular subject before I know, but it outrages me so much how anti-internet my family is! If they just saw how happy it made me I doubt they'd hate it as much, or maybe more.
They don't like me a whole lot, I'm quite sure of that. It seems that they don't approve of many of the choices that I've made in life recently, particularly that of my relationships. Sorry if I'm starting to sound a tad repetetive, but I'm not forcing you to read this and you can quit at any time. [img]smile.gif[/img] The thing I hear most often from my mom about this is that I should take some time to look at the wonderful stock of girls we have around here (heh, more like live stock)(shut up). Perhaps I would have considered that, if I hadn't tried and given up already. All the good ones are either taken or uninterested in me, and the only remaining ones have either the personality or the looks of the Tarrasque. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about, your parents trying to get you to go with someone who they think is nice or would suit you well. It's quite similar to the way things are with me, only that my mom only wants a specific area, not a particualr lady, which is still quite limiting to me! Just because they didn't have such opportunities when they were my age it seems as if they think that I shouldn't be able to utilize them to my advantage.
Well I think I've ranted long enough, this has to be the longest post I've ever made and wouldn't exactly be surprised if it were. Oh, and I'll tell you guys if anything ever comes of my first creation. [img]smile.gif[/img]

Cody R. Lape, don't ask what the R means, if I deemed you worthy I'd tell you

[dizzy]

aftering having read this

number
1 the situation kinda sucks doesnt it?
2 the same as one
3 whats the r stand for?
4 things will get better

[Glorfindel]

Wat does the R mean [img]tongue.gif[/img] [img]tongue.gif[/img] [img]tongue.gif[/img] [img]tongue.gif[/img] [img]tongue.gif[/img] [img]tongue.gif[/img]

[Yorick]

Well I for one am a professional musician, and a Christian, and I enjoy a good game of D&D. I think it's a great social connector, enhances the seeds of imagination, and is related to the acting craft.

I also think you're o.k. bro. Good on you for setting out a profession you're aiming for. I wish you all the best. [img]smile.gif[/img]

[ 04-15-2002, 11:43 PM: Message edited by: Yorick ]

[Grand-Ranger]

Well, I can realate with you in some ways. DnD has always been deemed evil in my family as well (even though my older brother played it). My choice of music has also been questionable. This includes Metallica, MegaDeth, and so on. When I started playing DnD and broght home a album with a skelton arising from a corpse on the cover (Megadeths-The World Needs A Hero) my parents almost fliped.

Nevermind the fact that I like hockey witch is a 'forengiers sport' and 'we dont have ice around here anyway' to texans.

And the fact I dont like football partiularly with is almsot worshiped here.

I have been somewhat of a blacksheep in my family. And as far as the internet goes, I almost enjoy hearing my partnets tell me 'You cant trust people from that country'. Or my sister sterotyping them. Its quite funny if you think about it.

But yeah I know what you feel to an extent.

There are some things my parents and I agree on. Although probley for diffrent reason.

Drew W. Lehmann to Cody Russel Lape

[ 04-15-2002, 11:49 PM: Message edited by: Grand-Ranger ]

[Sazerac]

Originally posted by SSJ4Sephiroth: and it's Current State of Affairs [img]smile.gif[/img] . Well, I'll begin by saying that I must be the most socially unacceptable person in the state of Oklahoma. For starters, everything that has been declared off-limits and evil has been pursued by me. These things include my kind of music (punk rock ), Dungeons and Dragons, internet relationships of any kind, exceptionally long hair, spiked clothing (my jacket, mainly), and speaking my mind to everyone. Among the beer-guzzling masses that make up the majority of my classmates, none of them can even try to claim interest in anyone outside of the city limits, let alone pledge loyalty to anyone besides themselves and a few of their friends. Also, I'm likley the only one out of the whole group that's set aside a likely goal and profession for myself. While others are obsessed with their unlikely careers in professional sports (they're not that good, I just don't have the heart to tell them), I'm sitting at my desk writing away on my second creation while waiting for word on my first to get back to me. All my life, I've been told how evil and satanic D&D is, and I guess I've just turned around and laughed at them since I'm the new dungeon master of the first official D&D club in Sallisaw. [img]smile.gif[/img] Works for me though, the only ones who ever told me how evil it was are the ones trying to keep me from doing anything online other than talking with my foolish classmates that want to talk about little more than how hot a girl is (other things to young ladies [thats what they are] that looks, boys ), getting drunk, fighting (I swear if I hear "I'm gonna kick your ass!" one more time at school I'm gonna scream!), and how much they think I'm a Nazi (how many times do I have to bloody say that I'm NOT?!). Obviously, there's a conflict of interest between me and my family, who are the ones telling me about the 'evils of the internet'. I posted about this particular subject before I know, but it outrages me so much how anti-internet my family is! If they just saw how happy it made me I doubt they'd hate it as much, or maybe more. They don't like me a whole lot, I'm quite sure of that. It seems that they don't approve of many of the choices that I've made in life recently, particularly that of my relationships. Sorry if I'm starting to sound a tad repetetive, but I'm not forcing you to read this and you can quit at any time. [img]smile.gif[/img] The thing I hear most often from my mom about this is that I should take some time to look at the wonderful stock of girls we have around here (heh, more like live stock)(shut up). Perhaps I would have considered that, if I hadn't tried and given up already. All the good ones are either taken or uninterested in me, and the only remaining ones have either the personality or the looks of the Tarrasque. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about, your parents trying to get you to go with someone who they think is nice or would suit you well. It's quite similar to the way things are with me, only that my mom only wants a specific area, not a particualr lady, which is still quite limiting to me! Just because they didn't have such opportunities when they were my age it seems as if they think that I shouldn't be able to utilize them to my advantage. Well I think I've ranted long enough, this has to be the longest post I've ever made and wouldn't exactly be surprised if it were. Oh, and I'll tell you guys if anything ever comes of my first creation. [img]smile.gif[/img] Cody R. Lape, don't ask what the R means, if I deemed you worthy I'd tell you

Seph, I know it's majorly hard going through what you're going through, but trust me when I tell you that it won't last forever. You have vision and a future, and never lose that nor give up what you are, for you are truly special. One of these days you'll be able to escape Sallisaw and find a place for yourself in the world. It majorly sucks that your family does not support you in your choices, but that's the way things work out sometimes. Certainly not fair. What you've got to do is find your support group elsewhere; online, among your other friends, wherever you can.

Just know that we care about you a LOT, and we fully support what you are doing with your writing. I for one pray for your success. Keep striving, man, and know there are many of us who believe in you and what you're doing.

Cheers and blessings,
-Sazerac

[Bahamut]

Not only that we care a lot, but then you also have your vision, and this is one thing to hold onto. Although yes, you are being mauled by almost everyone, that doesn't mean you have to conform... and I think you are already doing a good job

Now, I am glad that my parents are very supportive of me, because all she really wanted was for me to get into good schools and keep on passing and all that... which I have done.. and now she is actually spoiling me... LOL. Anyway, you can try to write a letter, or whatever, try to be extra caring or romantic to them, it usually works, when you just say, "I love you". It makes their day even though they are mad at you, or just plain irritated. You are their son, and I am sure whatever happens, they will be there... even if not today... they will understand

Ryan

ditto to everything Saz said, I couldn't have said it better myself.

I can really really relate to a lot of what you posted...just two days ago me and an old chum from school were chuckling over the situation my mother put me in by making me befriend a boy that had a crush on me when he and I were both 11 years old...we were great friends but all too soon, he bought me a "friendship ring" and immediately afterward his mother and my mother started making WEDDING PLANS for the two of us.
I took advantage of a chance to change classrooms that year when school started...mainly to get away from him and to figure out how I could get myself out of a mess I never wanted to be in without hurting anyone...he was my friend and I loved his mother dearly.
He, saying I "broke up with him" by changing classrooms STILL HATES ME....after TWENTY-NINE YEARS!!!
Egad!
I was also the black sheep of the family, our schools and the little town we lived in...I could never dress to please myself and still please everyone else. They wanted me to be something I wasn't...something I refused to do. I took a lot of flack for it but I'll be the first to say that I've enjoyed every minute I've spent being me and would never forgive myself had I spent one day being what everyone else wanted or expected me to be.

You have a good head on your shoulders and you sound to me like you are the most likely of all those that surround you to actually reach your goals, acheive your dreams and have fun doing it. [img]smile.gif[/img]

Never let go of YOU and what you want out of life...all the rest will fall into place...be it to your liking or not, just remember that your own opinion of you is what matters most...never let anyone knock it down a notch or two (or more) because it is not what they want...its not their life.

You Go Guy!
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*Edited for bad math lol...I knew it was a long long time that that guy has hated me LOL

[ 04-16-2002, 04:18 PM: Message edited by: Moni ]

[Neb]

Cody, sounds quite a bit like what I've got happening here. Except that I'm being condemned more by my classmates than by my family, my family learned some time ago the futility of trying to make me be online less or deciding what I should or should not enjoy. They're still not too approving of me being online though, nor of my having friends there.

It's not that I would mind having friends offline, but when I look at the people that I can make friends with around here online friends are CLEARLY preferrable. I've already been told by the idiots around here several times that if I want to stop being an "outcast" I have to start drinking alcohol. Yeah, right, like that's gonna happen.

As for the ambitions, none except for one or two of my classmates have any idea what sort of carreer they want, much less what kind of education they're going to take after Denmark's equivalent of High School. I've already decided the general direction of my future education as well as beginning to write a story, being an author for a living would be a dream come true [img]smile.gif[/img]

Alright, time to end this post, what I'm saying, Cody, is that I sympathize wholeheartedly. I know what it's like, to an extent, hang in there, it'll get better.

Patrick, lacking a middle name, Schaldemose [img]tongue.gif[/img]

[Aelia Jusa]

Well I think you're great Sephy [img]smile.gif[/img] . Don't let small minds get you down *big hugs*