First off, forgive me for not posting his passing right away, I just couldn't.. emotionally I just couldn't do it until now.
Choc Passed away
June 4th between 11am-1:20pm EST 2014.
It's hard to type that... hell, I didn't tell my sister until a week ago..
In my other post, I told you he could no longer walk, and his kidneys were failing, well, we carried him to his water, and food, and took in both fine.. but was still losing weight.
He loves to sleep up under the covers, and donna went to work, and I woke up late, at 1:20pm because I was up late with him, and doing some things. And I woke up, and he was laying on his side, and when I touched him, I knew... stiff. no pulse. I knew it would come, but still gutted me.. I didn't loose it 'crazily' like I thought I would, which surprised me.. but knowing he died in his sleep, next to us made us feel better.
He was such a fighter... that's one major thing I will always remember from him.. "Never give up, no matter what". And enjoy life.
I found his adoption records, and said we adopted him in Mar of 1998. (he was 5 1/2 then), and so I guess he was around 22 1/2. Which is AMAZING.. for ANY cat, let alone one that's blind.
We dug a grave for him, 4 ft. next to Charlie's grave... Charly lived until he was 17. Which is funny, We had 17 years or so with Choc...
If you lost a pet, you will look at the missing food bowls, missing toys... water glass... and get sad.. Or walk into a room and just for a split second say 'where's xxxx', in your mind, and remember...
same thing with sounds.. and loads of other things. It's weird.. my brain has to rewire itself to the loss...
Some nights in the office late at night, and Donna is asleep, I'll think of him and get sad... I still think of him a LOT each day, but that's normal...
I have cried about Choc, but it was weird... about a week ago, I forget what caused it.. a song, or me thinking of him, and BAM!! I finally had a good old cry, and got it out..
I'm doing better now, but time will heal the loss.. but he will never be forgotten.
I'll be designing a Choc dedication page on my new tgeweb web design which was put on hiatus (along with almost ALL other work--website, forum, comic, 3D modeling) since Choc was sick, but I will slowly get back to it all..
Took about a year after Charly died to 'feel' like drawing again.. (weird thing with artists but I'm not waiting a year this time!
).... but tgeweb is 90% done, just need to get a GOOD guestbook cgi (which bots can't mess with) and voting.. And some Flash aspects I am learning.
I'm already working on finishing up the new Durty Bug Comic. Only 1 page left, and its the 'coming next month' page, so it'll be quick!
Then tgeweb finishing, and Ironworks webarea an forum.. (Forum will require a new version of vbb, and my 'so called' lifetime membership' doesn't cover their 'new' version... its like 200-300 dollars.. lol so that'll be next year.. (The new version has a mobile and web version, which I need). Like an app... plus the website... don't know much about it yet.
I have 1000's of Photo's of Choc, and tons of video! I'll be adding it to the dedication page when it's launched. (It'll be a lot of pages with the best images). and video of him playing, running around on the bed, chasing the string..
Sure miss him... he'd be sitting next to me right now....
I will keep my Avatar of him up. Choc is king!
He is still IW's mascot, just from a higher place now.
"I Bow, to the Meow" once last time...
-Dan