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07-16-2002, 05:15 AM

I’ve got something that I need to explain to all of you. I am hoping that you will understand what has occurred and not judge me on what was initially a simple mistake!

Before I go on, I want you all to know that I love being part of the Ironworks community. It has been enjoyable, educational and inspiring. On top of all that, I have made some pretty good friends. It’s this last part that has created a rather large dilemma for me! My story goes as follows:

I came to IWF to get some help on a particular part of Baldur’s Gate 2 that was giving me some trouble. I soon realised that I needed to have a user account to go further, so I created one on the spot. Since I was playing Baldur’s Gate 2 as a female Kensai Warrior named Aviendha, I thought it was appropriate to call this temporary account Aviendha.

So, I get the help I need for the game, but before I leave, I see some rather interesting threads and decide to check some of them out. Before I knew it, I had visited many threads and started to rack up some posts. Then I found the General Discussion section, where I found even more interesting threads that I could take part in.

Weeks pass, and I rack up 100s of posts, and have a great time. But then something strange happened that I never imagined would occur. I actually started to make some friends. I started to look forward to chatting to my new friends, and have found them all to be extremely honest, funny, and intellegent people, in whom I have much in common. Ever since I came here, I’ve been nothing but honest with everyone that I’ve spoken to. This includes the religious discussions, the movie and book reviews, the general chit chat in Cloudy’s Café. Except for one thing. I’m a guy!

Now before you start calling me a sicko perverted creep, I want you to know that I have felt extremely ashamed with the situation for quite some time. I didn’t have to admit it! I could have continued on with the deception, and none of you would have been the wiser. Except I can’t do it any more! Some of the guys here have been a little bit flirtatious with me because they thought I was female, and believe me, that’s made me feel completely weird as well! When I posted a picture of me in Stealthy’s, it’s actually a picture of me and my wife, and I entitled it “Aviendha’s Special Day!”, so as not to actually lie. But I admit, it has all been extremely deceptive and I’m sorry!

I have tried to figure out a way of dealing with this situation, but I’ve come up empty handed. If I create a new account and just leave Aviendha behind, I would lose my posts, but more importantly, I would lose my friends. Also, people would probably pick up that I had the same interests, the same birthday, and the same sense of humour as the departed Aviendha. They would also wonder how I came to know so much about other IW members. If I just keep going as Aviendha, I am living a lie, and cut out the possibility of ever meeting any of you (which is something I want to do very much!)

The only other option I can come up with is to simply leave and not come back! If this thread works out the way I think it might, I may have no option but to bid you all farewell! I figure the only way that I can recover from this shitty mess, is if I admit my foolishness and ask you all to forgive me and accept me under a new name. I believe Ziroc can change my name easy enough.

Signing out,
Ben.

PS : I am particularly sorry to Uss, SomeGuy, Yorick, Cloudy, Lady Blue, Johnny, Downunda, Dizzy, Megabot, Melusine, CD, Cerek and Sir M, as I consider you all to be friends, and if it ends here, I will miss you very much!

[ 07-16-2002, 05:18 AM: Message edited by: Aviendha ]

07-16-2002, 05:15 AM	#1
lroyo Guest Posts: n/a	I’ve got something that I need to explain to all of you. I am hoping that you will understand what has occurred and not judge me on what was initially a simple mistake! Before I go on, I want you all to know that I love being part of the Ironworks community. It has been enjoyable, educational and inspiring. On top of all that, I have made some pretty good friends. It’s this last part that has created a rather large dilemma for me! My story goes as follows: I came to IWF to get some help on a particular part of Baldur’s Gate 2 that was giving me some trouble. I soon realised that I needed to have a user account to go further, so I created one on the spot. Since I was playing Baldur’s Gate 2 as a female Kensai Warrior named Aviendha, I thought it was appropriate to call this temporary account Aviendha. So, I get the help I need for the game, but before I leave, I see some rather interesting threads and decide to check some of them out. Before I knew it, I had visited many threads and started to rack up some posts. Then I found the General Discussion section, where I found even more interesting threads that I could take part in. Weeks pass, and I rack up 100s of posts, and have a great time. But then something strange happened that I never imagined would occur. I actually started to make some friends. I started to look forward to chatting to my new friends, and have found them all to be extremely honest, funny, and intellegent people, in whom I have much in common. Ever since I came here, I’ve been nothing but honest with everyone that I’ve spoken to. This includes the religious discussions, the movie and book reviews, the general chit chat in Cloudy’s Café. Except for one thing. I’m a guy! Now before you start calling me a sicko perverted creep, I want you to know that I have felt extremely ashamed with the situation for quite some time. I didn’t have to admit it! I could have continued on with the deception, and none of you would have been the wiser. Except I can’t do it any more! Some of the guys here have been a little bit flirtatious with me because they thought I was female, and believe me, that’s made me feel completely weird as well! When I posted a picture of me in Stealthy’s, it’s actually a picture of me and my wife, and I entitled it “Aviendha’s Special Day!”, so as not to actually lie. But I admit, it has all been extremely deceptive and I’m sorry! I have tried to figure out a way of dealing with this situation, but I’ve come up empty handed. If I create a new account and just leave Aviendha behind, I would lose my posts, but more importantly, I would lose my friends. Also, people would probably pick up that I had the same interests, the same birthday, and the same sense of humour as the departed Aviendha. They would also wonder how I came to know so much about other IW members. If I just keep going as Aviendha, I am living a lie, and cut out the possibility of ever meeting any of you (which is something I want to do very much!) The only other option I can come up with is to simply leave and not come back! If this thread works out the way I think it might, I may have no option but to bid you all farewell! I figure the only way that I can recover from this shitty mess, is if I admit my foolishness and ask you all to forgive me and accept me under a new name. I believe Ziroc can change my name easy enough. Signing out, Ben. PS : I am particularly sorry to Uss, SomeGuy, Yorick, Cloudy, Lady Blue, Johnny, Downunda, Dizzy, Megabot, Melusine, CD, Cerek and Sir M, as I consider you all to be friends, and if it ends here, I will miss you very much! [ 07-16-2002, 05:18 AM: Message edited by: Aviendha ]