AWWW Griever, I don't know what to say. I know this is hard. Please keep the hope that someone better will come along some day and you will be able to lavish all of your feelings and love on her. You are not being stupid especially when it comes to your feelings. The way we feel toward someone is something that doesn't go away right away. It takes time and you will see that the right person is out there for you and when you find her, everything you felt for this other girl, will be a distant memory.
UUMMM, I hope this didn't sound dumb.
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Draconia, Dragon Queen