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Mahlennacht · 05-18-2003, 03:38 AM

I almost drowned in a friend's pool when I was about 12 (?) - I didn't really know how to swim at the time, I usually stood in the shallow end - then we got this idea where the friend would go underwater and I would stand on his back while I went more to the deep side - of course I forgot he couldn't stay underwater forever, so he had to come up, and I went down, but I bobbed up a few times and managed to grab the edge of the pool...

Then last March I got into a car crash - straight into the side of a passing car at 35 mph - totalled my car, I still have some back and neck pain, but I easily could have snapped my neck, as the airbag didn't deploy on my side because I hit at an angle...

This wasn't really near-death, but it felt like it - in Dec 2000 I had an attack of pleurisy, of all things; lung lining was inflamed, but it felt like I was having a heart attack and I really thought I might die that night - but I felt more bummed for my relatives who were concerned about me...

I've pretty much had enough of this world since 1985, I still think about suicide to some extent almost daily, but I keep putting it off [img]graemlins/hehe.gif[/img] - I'm going to die anyway, so until that day I decided I'll just while away the time by either doing something helpful for some others, who for some reason are NOT sick of this world, or doing something interesting for myself - and in any event my life insurance frowns on suicide and won't pay off any relatives if I do that, so there... (not to mention the mess a dead body can make [img]tongue.gif[/img] )

05-18-2003, 03:38 AM	#10
Mahlennacht Drow Warrior Join Date: September 10, 2001 Location: CA, USA Age: 62 Posts: 298	I almost drowned in a friend's pool when I was about 12 (?) - I didn't really know how to swim at the time, I usually stood in the shallow end - then we got this idea where the friend would go underwater and I would stand on his back while I went more to the deep side - of course I forgot he couldn't stay underwater forever, so he had to come up, and I went down, but I bobbed up a few times and managed to grab the edge of the pool... Then last March I got into a car crash - straight into the side of a passing car at 35 mph - totalled my car, I still have some back and neck pain, but I easily could have snapped my neck, as the airbag didn't deploy on my side because I hit at an angle... This wasn't really near-death, but it felt like it - in Dec 2000 I had an attack of pleurisy, of all things; lung lining was inflamed, but it felt like I was having a heart attack and I really thought I might die that night - but I felt more bummed for my relatives who were concerned about me... I've pretty much had enough of this world since 1985, I still think about suicide to some extent almost daily, but I keep putting it off [img]graemlins/hehe.gif[/img] - I'm going to die anyway, so until that day I decided I'll just while away the time by either doing something helpful for some others, who for some reason are NOT sick of this world, or doing something interesting for myself - and in any event my life insurance frowns on suicide and won't pay off any relatives if I do that, so there... (not to mention the mess a dead body can make [img]tongue.gif[/img] )