[Stormymystic]

now see what you did...i am crying
I understand all those things, and try hard not to get upset, he drives limos all ight, so he is never here for me to cuddle with at night while i am asleep, i feel awful now though, most of the time it does not bother me about the pics, just that he put it where my 4 year old could find it, he has recently learned how to open files on the computer, and as for the feelings, the only ting i have ever asked of my husband to understand is that i am here 24/7 with the kids i getno day off, if the kids are sick i have to take care of them while they are vomiting on me, and have had to do things such as remove a peice of foam rubber from my babies nose that had been there along time without anyone noticing, and all i ever hear from his is glad you did this, but you neeeded to do that too, love your poems but don't you think they are a little dark, love your family but you really should try and remove yourself a little from them before they hurt you any worse, and my favorite of all time...honey dinner was great but you really need to clean the house now that the kids are asleep, so you see, it is not just the nudy mags and pics that bug me, if you belive in astrology, then you would understand that picese and sagatiris are to different beings, i am emotional, he is not, i tend to caremoreabout other people than my self, he does not, if i see someone in need, i would give them my last fewq dollars to help them, he would not. i am not trying to say he is a bad person, i just have had to much going on these past months, i recently lost 2 uncles with-in a week of each other, my father has been diagnosed with parkisons disease, one of my cousins had just made lt when the war broke out, he was sent over there, and i have not heard anything about him, and all my husband does is come home, tell me about some freak he had to drive around all night, or some beautiful woman who was drunk and taking her clothes off in the limo,and most of the time i would just laugh, but the past week i have been on a emotinal rollercoaster and do notknow why, most of the time i am crying, i laugh when i come here, but then i have to clean house and i start crying all over again