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Well, some of you may remember I posted about the girl of my dreams some
time ago, she is from germany, very beautyful, smart, funny and just one of
the best person I've ever met. Anyway she went back to Germany last
January and was going to come back in august, we had made big plans, we
were going to rent a flat together and the list of things we were going to
do was getting veeery long. I was looking so much forward to this and
thought I've finaly found my one and true love.
But (there is always a but... or butter) then last week after not hearing from her for some time, I got a phone call from her and she sounded very sad, she told me that she was sorry but she needed time to be alone, its hard to explain and I don't really understand it, but she is a very spiritual person and she said she was going through something that was changing her a lot, and she was not sure what was going to happen but she was sorry to make all these big plans with me because she wasn't sure if she would be able to fulfill them... so she hoped we would be able to be just friends.
Well it made me sad, it seems very important to her so I can't blame her, I blame myself however for once again building up my hopes and dreams around one person when I know its just useless. And I should have known that this was just to good to be true. Great things like that don't happen to me and I should know it by now...
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