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Originally posted by Ziroc: Quote: Originally posted by RevRuby: was it feline urinary tract syndrome charly had? my old cat t.c. had that. he had the full surgery as well. they had tried a shunt wit no success. he was 17 when we had to put him to sleep. he developed pancreatic cancer. i now have an spca cat too, dexter. he's not blind, but he is defective. he's not fond of being played with too much by justice, but he hate it if she ignores him! who knew a cat could love a four year old!

Yeah, when Charly was 5 or so, he had a buildup of crystals in his bladder, and they had to remove his BEEP. so he didn't have his BEEP *or* his BEEP! He could hold his bladder though. SOMETIMES he would 'leek' [img]smile.gif[/img] when he streched or I picked him up to fast, but other than that, he did fine!!

Charly died of Kidney failure. He was with me since I was in 1st grade. and god... when the Doc said that he wouldn't last a week, I was devastated. I screamed, wailed like a baby . He was my freaking CHILD!!! I know it sounds silly to many people, but not me [img]smile.gif[/img] I still tear up thinking of the last night I spent with him. I took him home, and we laid on the the bed, I laid him on his favorite blue blanket, and put my arm around him, and told him not to be scared, and stuff, and told him it's ok to go. I hugged him, and he took his last breaths. (god, crying now...) A part of me died with him.

I am very blessed to have Choc. He is as amazing as Charly was.[/QUOTE]Ziroc,
You weren't the only one crying when reading this. And it doesn't sound silly to me about how you felt. My Whiskers died while I was away at college. She was living with my friend at the time, and she made sure her last days were full of love. I bawled my eyes out when I found out and also felt so guilty that I couldn't be there with her when she left after 15 years. (Great, now you have me crying!) I know exactly how you feel and can emphasize totally. Both Choc and Charlie are blessed to have had you (still have you) in their lives!