[Bungleau]

As a software professional, I've learned that when something changes, you start to ask what else changed around the time that the first thing started to change. So if I read correctly, you've given up smoking, made a decision to beef up, and started lifting weights, all at the same time (roughly).

To dance around the topic politely, are you taking any other substances in conjunction with your new weight training regimen and desire to beef up? There are a number of steroid substances that have agression as side effects... I'll let one of our more medically knowledgeable brethren or sistren explain more.

As for getting the agression out, one thing I used to do years ago when I got frustrated or angry was to take a pair of nun-chucks and start going through my paces. It's amazing how a tiny piece of wood (or aircraft aluminum, in my case), whirling around your head and other favorite body parts, can help you to forget about anything else going on in the mundane world and be totally focused on the sticks and where they are at any given moment....

The penalty for losing concentration is pain... utter, extreme pain...