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Cold turkey for two weeks now. No patches, no gum, no nothin'. I have to kill someone. Boy was i naive. I've tried at least five times before so i knew it was gonna be difficult but i didn't quite guess it was gonna turn out like this. Before, the only trouble i had was trying to avoid the temptation. (guess that's kinda why i quit quitting [img]graemlins/1ponder.gif[/img] ) I never had any trouble with aggro. In fact, i've never been aggressive in my whole life. Until now.

In the last week i've freaked out at my boss (it was his fault, or so i thought at the time), hurled abuse at a total stranger for a minor accident(this was his fault but ordinarily it wouldn't have bothered me at all), had two seperate fights with two of my best friends, and crashed my car in a fit of anger. I've also single handedly raised the ante for road rage in my hometown, needlessly spoiled any chance of 'getting to know' a girl that i met and have taken up tormenting my pets as my number one hobby (this, in particular makes me feel incredibly bad).

I need some advice from someone who's been there, done that. When does my fuse go back to normal? Am i going to be a jerk for the rest of my healthy life? Is there anything to take my mind off of chasing cats around the house with an exercise ball? IS THERE HOPE? AAARRRGGGHHH!!! I WILL CRUSH YOU, PUNY ONES!