[Melusine]

I have a suicide in my close family as well, but I don't hate him for it.
You never know what happened to them - people have secrets even to those they are closest to. In my case, there was plenty incentive, though I still think he should have chosen a different way out. It may appear selfish, but I think that in many cases, something just snaps inside their brain - the cannot empathise or connect to the world anymore... it's sheer despair to which there's only one way out. We don't know enough of the human psyche to be able to really tell what's going on inside a person's head.
Of course I felt anger as well, but a lot of the people who REALLY want to die are just too far gone to be able to make clear judgements, and in that respect I don't feel I can blame them for their act.