[Chewbacca]

A recent entry in my journal:


I'm officially aware that I have grown de-sensitized to the continuing and unabatted violence in Iraq. I realize that I actually expect news like this now from Iraq where I once hoped (and prayed) it would dimish.

Once I would feel sad, angry, and concerned upon hearing such news but now I feel an eerie dead emptiness inside. The road to hell is paved with good intentions and the 15 months I have walked further and further down that road paved with the supposed good intentions of folks in power who profess to be good. I walk down this road not as a supporter of the war actions, but as a witness and a voice of dissent.

Thank God for this wake-up call. I have not yet reached the end of my own apathy road, I can still turn around.

My sadness returns as I realize that so many have reached the end of another road in the last 15 months, and in the long dirtnap of death they do not have the same recourse to walk the other way that I do.

My anger returns as I realize that this path was one that could have been totally avoided. An unneccessary waste of lives is a righteous cause to be angry about.

My concern returns, those responsbile for creating this fiasco seem unwilling to concede failure and take responsibility for their actions. They still act proud, pass the buck, and ask for trust in their judgement. Though history shows they should not be trusted.

I am not dead yet on the inside but I feel like I have had a near-miss.