Well all I can say is what I said before: who am I to judge about what another person does with his/her life?
Personally I think you'll be missing out on a LOT, both intense grief and intense joy, that enrich your life and grant you life experience and wisdom (being optimistic now

- for most people it does anyway). But hey, that's your decision to live with [img]smile.gif[/img]
Edit: in addition, I don't think you always have a choice, or that never allowing yourself to be with someone really is a choice. It would seem to me that sooner or later, you're going to find yourself in a situation where you cannot but choose for love - but of course I cannot say for sure because I don't know you well enough.
[ 05-26-2002, 01:48 PM: Message edited by: Melusine ]