Avvy, you know, everyone wants and needs attention at some point in their lives. Most of us like it alot.. so it's no crime that you do too. But I hope you don't feel so bad as to consider doing anything rash!
I've done things I regret, so has my bf. Relationships can be like that. But you can't beat yourself up over it forever.
Please accept all our good wishes and sympathy, Avvy! You are being thougth of by all of us!
Cloudy