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Originally posted by 250:
nothing I do seem to be able to put her off my mind. nothing,
only if she can just send me an email, just as short as "hello, I am fine here, I miss you." or maybe log on for 5 mins to say hi... how much I'd love her gift, even if it is the smallest thing in the world, or send me a card... dont friends do that to each other?
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250, SNAP OUT OF IT!!! And I mean it!!! You are hovering on the edge of obsession, and this is *NOT* a good thing, my son.
Your life does NOT exist because of her gracing it with her presence.
We have talked about this: remember when we said you have a choice to make? And having made the choice to continue to be her friend, you (because of your strong feelings for her) would at some point then have to decide if continuing would be healthy for you? You are at that point. Is this healthy for *YOU*?!? I know you can't help your love for her, but in reality, you must care for yourself first and foremost. She has her own issues to deal with (which she is choosing not to do) and ignores or chooses not to see your yearning to be part of the solution. Until and unless she opens her eyes to her own inner self and realizes the chaos she has created, your best bet is to back off and stay away.
I'll be damned if I lose you, Leo! So you'd best pull yourself up, dust off your heart, and get back on the path! We can talk later, if need be. E-mail me.