Well i would just like to share my lil insight on this forum... well it was more intended for older members.. coz they know my one big giant girl prob... actually, you are allw elcome... but don't tell me to narrate the entire story!!!
Oki, so you guys know my prom date right? Well, I just learned how she writes... anyway, I realized something that maybe is the epitome of failure in my book....
It is simple... I was always there for her, I always called her before, it was so perfect and all... I even called her like in this lil retreat we had last year... (Sept. 22) and I was surprised to even remember such a thing! I mean it just came! When my granma had her wake (she died last October... so almost a year now)... time... anyway, I used to call her... ARGH! It is making me angry!!! So moving on, everything was perfect, and she said I love you last christmas right? Well poor me I had a very big insecurity problem that could have been the turning point... and theprom... was just too late... too late...
So I have come to this very painful realization on my part... correct me if I am wrong here... It is that I never made her feel special or at least, good about herself... or at least all the time in our friendship... I can say that our friendship is over now... for some reason... so... that is my greatest flaw... I can talk, I can make people laugh, I may the perfectguy every girl is looking for, but I am not because of this... because of this...
So I was just thinking here if I ever made feel someone special? did I make you feel so pretty or bright or hot amidst all the troubles? Well, probably not, but I am not here crying my ass of about this... I accepted it, and I just want to know if I made here feel at least special... at least a day orso...
Ryan
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Heya! It's just me, Bahamut!