Let it die brother. Soon enough it will fade from memory and your soul will have it's rest. By picking at this slowly healing wound, you will just prolong it's healing.
If you ask her that question, there is a more then good chance that whatever she tells you will not be the real answer but the answer she tells you because she feels sorry for you. Asking that question after the fact would, I think, engender pity and that would elicit a response other then the truth.
Lastly, what would the answer do for you? If she told you you meant the world to her but it just wasn't meant to be... You are still broken up in the end. If she told you that you meant nothing to her and it was all a mistake... You are still broken up in the end. Put your soul at ease knowing that you live and learn, and the next time around (and there will be a next time) you can learn from your mistakes.
Good luck my friend.
BTW- A personal rule...Never but never chase or grovel or debase yourself before any girl ex or otherwise under any circumstances. Have confidence and respect in yourself and it will begin to matter less and less. If she doesn't want to be with you it's because she didn't know you for who you are and she wasn't good enough for you. Sooner or later someone who does appreciate you and is good enough for you will come along.
------------------
"The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his."
-General George Patton (1885-1945)
Member of CLAN HADB
[This message has been edited by MILAMBER (edited 08-21-2001).]
[This message has been edited by MILAMBER (edited 08-21-2001).]