Ironworks Gaming Forum - View Single Post - My nightmare...for it is my greatest fear.

RudeDawg · 06-12-2001, 11:19 PM

Larry

Thank you for this. It seems we share the same fear. That has always been my worst one, worst than any phobia. And, like you, I have listened to people tell me that it would never happen. Especially her.

BUT, unlike you, I lived this. When it counted, I wasn't strong enough, and she died. I've lived with the guilt for 3 years now, and have seen her in my dreams every night since. She no longer accuses me, but I do. It is my greatest failure, and I have been burdened with the shame of it. I know that I always shall.

Like you, I don't seek solace, or help, nor do I want to hear people tell me how "good", "nice", or "special" I am. When it mattered, I failed. And, I live with the shame today.

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06-12-2001, 11:19 PM	#3
RudeDawg 20th Level Warrior Join Date: April 9, 2001 Location: Dallas, Tx, USA Age: 56 Posts: 2,830	Larry Thank you for this. It seems we share the same fear. That has always been my worst one, worst than any phobia. And, like you, I have listened to people tell me that it would never happen. Especially her. BUT, unlike you, I lived this. When it counted, I wasn't strong enough, and she died. I've lived with the guilt for 3 years now, and have seen her in my dreams every night since. She no longer accuses me, but I do. It is my greatest failure, and I have been burdened with the shame of it. I know that I always shall. Like you, I don't seek solace, or help, nor do I want to hear people tell me how "good", "nice", or "special" I am. When it mattered, I failed. And, I live with the shame today. ------------------ [This message has been edited by RudeDawg (edited 06-12-2001).]