You know what, I never had to face the trials that some of you did. I had a bad breakdown 3 years ago, and I came out of it mostly by having myself think and think, how absurd I was being, I had NOTHING wrong clinically, no 'real' illness, so what ? Knowing that, I still couldn't feel well and live my life ?
Yeah, I agree with you, Charean, with both hands. Back then, I started looking at all the people running all day, burying themselves under work, and I started thinking that maybe most of them never did stop running because they can't stop, because if they would stop for a minute and think, they would realize that they do that only to try to forget that they will die someday. And I was that kind of person before. Able to spend 12 and 14 hours a day programming. Not anymore. Now, I can do my job, take pleasure in it, but not ever forgetting that it is all a nice activity which won't let a trace in the world when I'm dead. Fun at times, boring at times, but not, never, a compulsive way to think I am alive.
Hey Charean, do you really really think that we would love you an inch less if you happened to get a little ... less thin ?
Go, girl, go eat that ice-cream. I pay.
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The world is my oyster !
And now I have the knives to open it ...
[This message has been edited by Moiraine (edited 06-12-2001).]