Hi Ertai!
Good to see, sad to see you in sorrows..
Well, feelings and fears do attack you when you´re down. No fault in it. To have fears and admit that they´re there and are realis a progress to start to fight them.
You have as I a background in martial arts and you too I guess have had fears before entering a fight in a tournament. How did you beat your fears then? Or did you loose because of them.
fears and thoughts are connected deeply and they´re there to tell you that something is wrong. Don´t have to be forever, only that you maybe are to deep in thoughts over something bro!
So take your time. Think, and beat them. I have talked to you alot and I haven´t seen a weak person but strong and sensitive. To dare to be sensitive and to dare to care, man that is toughness.
To be cold, is to be weak cause you can´t confront your softer and deeper feelings. So you´re not to fear of that friend!
Well hopefully I´ll catch you online soon friend!!
And hey, tears are good, they´re are cleansing your soul. It is better to cry than not. I know, I couldn´t cry for almost two years, and when it burst, well it felt good. So man tears are a good thing, that means you´re human!!
Cheers friend!
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WOLF WINS EVERY FIGHT BUT ONE, AND IN THAT ONE, HE DIES