Bahamut/Ryan
Believe me, you're not alone in feeling the way you do. You are obviously an incredibly deep, intelligent and sensitive person with a lot to offer (and I'm not just talking about a lot to offer a girl, I also mean that you have a lot to offer the world, the board, friends etc).
If you feel you need a break from the board to work through this, then so be it, but don't you know you have a lot of friends here who can offer you moral support and who will miss you if you leave? If you feel bad, you can talk it over with us.
And please don't do anything 'silly' - you never know what may be around the corner that you may miss out on - there are a whole world of experiences, good and bad, to be had.
It seems to me from reading your posts as though, like me, you go 'up and down' a lot in the way you feel and view life. It is difficult to get through the bad days, I know from my own experience, but there will also be plenty of good times, love, joy, friendships. Please bear this in mind when you are going through a bad patch.
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Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so.
Epona of The Laughing Hyenas.