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"Leave me alone" he mumbled. "I tried appologising to Lord Avalon... and he threw me against a wall." Calaethis's head was still buried in his pillow. "Alliene hates me... she hates me..." his voice was one of tortured pain, and with bitterness he snarled "She treats that dog better then me.. why did you bring me here? Why couldn't you leave me to die?" he moaned, "I... deserve death... I... don't want to go on... I've caused too much pain... my actions are unforgiveable... and..." he looked up at her, his eyes tearful, and pleading, his face tearstained. "I loved you, and her -" meaning Alliene " - and even... Avalon... you were family... and I threw that in your face, and caused you more pain then... then..." he broke off his eyes overflowing with tears; though cleanched teeth he spoke;"I'm pethetic, I'm a sniverling little elf wretch... I allowed myself to be used; a pawn - and because of that, I caused you more pain then I could ever atone for in a dosen lifetimes... I hate myself for what I've done..." his head hit the pillow again, this time, his face on the side. "..why did you bring me here...?" he asked softly. "To beat me? ...or... t-to for- no, you would never forgive me... and even if you did... she wouldn't. I deserve everything I get... and more..." he didn't even look at Avalon; he didn't address Verloren, he just stared blankly into space - his voice held no self-pity in it - only self loathing.
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