Oh god... That was a REALLY BAD attention getter.
I knew it was just a cry for attention of course.
OK that "mage spell" can be cured by having the wardstone from the island. You get it by killing Perth The Adept. In your case, go into the shadow keeper and give it to yourself.
Oh and SAVE MORE OFTEN! My rule of thumb is every time I think of saving I save, before every door or stairway, and after every big event.
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"Eh? No, I don't hold grudges. Why? There's nothing to hold a grudge against, I kill what pisses me off!"