Thank You........thank you all.
You can't imagine how much you guys/gals mean to me during this time. I found the courage today to ring up her doorstep and she was hesistant to let me in. However I felt that speaking through the phone wasn't going to help so I needed to hear it from her personally.
I DID resort to drinking that night (or should I say Dawn?) and my brother found me dozing off on the keyboard at 11AM. I need to buy a new keyboard too because I spill most of the booze all over keys. I'm typing now with my friend's keyboard, and hopefully he won't find out why. We talked and she said that it was over because things weren't working out right? WHAT WASN'T WORKING OUT RIGHT??!! I DON'T UNDERSTAND?! We didn't speak for long and I think our relationship is definately over - We can't even stay as friends, that's how bad it ended up
I don't know where this is going to take me, but I'm single again - that's for sure. If she told me why she didn't want me then that's okay, but you can't just snatch yourself away from our relationship and say........(sorry about the use of this)...........■■■■ OFF!!
I'm suspecting she's cheating on me with one of my mates. And I'm going to keep an eye out for whoever she hangs around with. I called her friends but they wouldn't speak to me either (maybe she bribed or threatened them not to) even though I knew some of them since Primary School
You people are all I have left, if you want to know then you guys/gals were the first to know about this - my mum doesn't know because she told me not to go out with her in the first place! And my father wouldn't give a shit even if I was gay so family gave me 0 points for reassurance.
I thank you all again, everybody for making my life so much happier. I'd wished I known you all earlier because you count for my belief, that there are actually nice people in this world.
Thank You so Much
Yours
Wah
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