Yeah, for back pain, I've been on Ultram (Tramadol Cerek) and Vicodin for years.. not that much.. but due to the 'losing it--i.e. being bored and worried' I was prescribed Xanax 0.5mg 4/d.. yeah...
that shit is NO joke.
The first time I took it, I went to see Transformers 3, and got home, and a week later, I said " We should go see Transformers 3". Donna looked at me and said WE SAW THAT..
I didn't remember it at all. So I kinda stopped taking it only when SUPER necessary. scary shit. I DO NOT like any drug messing with my mind.. losing memory like that is bad.
It also helped my side pain--which began 2 years ago.. would come for a few weeks then be gone.. then 2 MONTHS and gone, like 'Crohn's early flare ups'.. Thought I might have Crohn's (My Dad had it, and my Step brother HAS it). I was checked out 'bottom to top'..lol, AND a barium xray of my stomach.. Drinking that white chalk was
vile, and will never forget HAHAHA...
If You stop taking Xanax? Throat pain in thyroid area, chest tightness and cannot sleep for 2-3 days. VERY dangerous drug.
Hate taking more pills.. ugh.. but I am doing better.. xanax did help the hand pain a bit then it went away.. (I washed the car, and that's what aggravated it).. lol.. I am a stubborn ass.. Still think I can push though something with the hand, and pay for it. hehe..
I just want it healed... so cigs are lowering! Wanna get back to WORK! Got so much to do... I feel like I lost a year.. I did.... 2011 was not a good year.
But then I think of Japan's Quake and Tsunami, and my ills seem trivial, ya know? All the vets returning from War, with MISSING legs and arms..
Puts it in perspective, and I deal as well as I can..
BTW -- Cerek-- I do see a GREAT pain management Doc! Not a pill mill ass that ruins it for the GOOD Doctors.. I sometimes get epidurals when my lower back is killing me, or a Kenalog trigger point shot.. temporary helps too.
I just miss the days being pain free....
but when I DO have good days, and feel better, I cram so much stuff into the time I have, I sometimes pay for it... so I must take it easy.. don't go crazy with work...
2012, Here we come..... All of this won't matter if what some say happens on Dec 21, 2012.
Just wanted to say Happy Holidays to all, and be safe!! And hope 2012 is better..