[Dragonshadow]

Update the next -
S has decided he wants to try cutting me out of his life. I told him I was not happy, but I would give him time if he wants. But warned him that if I have heard nothing by the time I get back after Easter, I will look to get in touch with him. At least to find out he is alright.

I sent off my email to ask for counselling last night, and got an email and some texts this morning saying they will contact me when there is a slot. In the mean time, they suggested I try phoning the Samaritans.

On the upside, I had the best night's sleep for a long while (even with two fire alarm tests) and now I'm feeling like I'm doing something to help the situation, I'm far from happy, but there isn't much else I can do.

Thanks for the support guys. It really does mean a lot.