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Originally posted by Moni:
I did not mean to offend you, I know you do see the beauty in the world but do you let yourself be part of it?
I would really rather not sit here with you and trade misunderstood opinions and end up having you be mad but it seems to me like you may see the best, but you look for the worst, i.e. in your last response to me in the "Do you believe in the afterlife?" thread. I was insulted and felt like it would make you happy if we did just die and turn to nothing. I let it go then because I cannot change your point of view, only you can. My response would have been a little bit on the rude side but I felt it better to let it go rather than to have you encourage me to bring bad karma upon myself.
I did my testing of God with plenty of faith that the truth He showed me would be worth living for. To me, it is.
Respectfully,
Your Friend,
Moni
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Moni!
I am truly sorry if I offended you
I did not intend for that to happen, and I am not offended myself by ANYTHING people say to me with a good heart and genuineness. Yes, I DO get hot under the collar, but IT IS NOT PERSONAL! Please believe me! I like and respect you, Moni - and I sort of envy your belief, and the beliefs of others. Lady Avalon says I have tunnel vision and refuse to see the truth about spiritual matters. But I don't think it is that (ok, maybe she is right, but I don't see it, lol!
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I am fascinated by other peoples' beliefs. I really truly want to know. I would LIKE to believe as you do.
But, you see, Moni, I was 25 years as a practising christian, and towards the end of that time I started to notice stuff in the bible that just didn't gel with the god I was being asked to worship. I finished up saying, 'well, if what I am reading here is the person god is, I don't want to play with him any more, thanks'. And I do get really angry about some things, and some beliefs, but 1) the anger is not directed at the person I am chatting to. 2) I won't believe ANYTHING spiritual until I have tested it to breaking point. I don't want to waste the rest of my life believing c**p. I wnat to have real confidence that what I believe is safe to believe in. Ok, ok! I know that is pretty well impossible, but Moni, the reason I seem negative about what people believe is not 'cos I am knocking THEM! I just want
answers! Answers I can accept.
Please, as I said to Lady Avalon, keep posting
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