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Old 01-17-2006, 03:30 PM   #1
uss
20th Level Warrior
 

Join Date: November 16, 2001
Location: Estonia
Age: 36
Posts: 2,775
I'd like to start a discussion regarding the ability to express one's thoughts and views and emotions and whatnot in public. Since this is and has always been an RPG forum, I'm assuming that I'm not the only one who's having problems with that basic and seemingly easy but, when it gets down to practice, oh-so-distressingly difficult aspect of human nature. [img]tongue.gif[/img]

Since *I'm* the one who started the topic, *I'll* take the privilege to ask for help regarding my problems on the matter. [img]graemlins/heee.gif[/img]


See, I changed schools half a year ago. I went to a successful school where I have a moderate number of friends, deal with my hobbies more than I used to and so on. Life is good. ( [img]graemlins/petard.gif[/img] )

Nevertheless, I still tend to have trouble interacting with other people. It often occurs that my voice becomes strangely hoarse and unnatural when speaking with others. During that time, I've a strange tingling feeling in the top of my throat. Quite literally, sometimes I speak with such a voice that it's disturbing for myself to hear it - it becomes high pitched, yet hoarse (what a dreadful combination [img]graemlins/awcrap.gif[/img] ) - and 10 minutes later when I'm by myself again, I can once more speak with my own voice. It sometimes feels as if the mind and body are willing to speak but the throat or somesuch isn't.

I've a speculation regarding that the root of the issue might be. Years ago, when I still was in my previous school, I was extremely introverted and practically didn't associate with almost anyone except my family. Not to mention I was occasionally made fun of at school, during some period, it occured day after day. It was only much later after that that I really started interacting with others. I found out that I sometimes truly want to be and am talkative. But it seems possible that the shadows of the past have had a (subconscious) traumatizing effect on me. So I'm picturing my situation as if I were a bird desperately trying to break the shell sorrounding it.

There also might be a medical problem associated with this. I sometimes find it difficult to speak as loudly and clearly as I wish while interrupted by acoustic blabber that's active in the enviroment. My voice seems weaker and quieter than that of others.


I'd love to hear your thoughts and solutions regarding this. Tips on becoming socially more brave, tips on treatment by vocal exercises, anything. This problem is quite enormous to me as you can imagine.


Oh yeah, and feel free to express problems of your own on the subject if you have any. [img]tongue.gif[/img]


Regards
Peeter
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