Who's your mentor,who have you always looked up to and could count no matter what,who was there to pick you up when you fell?I just would like to give a special thanks to my brother Dwanye,He was always there for me,no matter what.He was always willing to teach me something new.I will always remember the way he would look at me like this [img]graemlins/saywhat.gif[/img] with out the twitchy eye.I am very young compared to him,me and him are 12 years apart(I'm 11 and he's 23 i think i got that right).Who have you always looked up to?

<font color="gold">Umm, let's see..... Memnoch, Ziroc, Sazerac..... :D
No, just kidding.
I dont know if there is a person which I've always looked up to, but there are pretty many people I feel fond to, and can really talk to. [img]smile.gif[/img] </font>

That's got to be my grandmother. She's strong willed, clever, down to earth and very family oriented. She was one of 13 kids and as one of the oldest she looked after he brothers and sisters. They grew up on a farm and after she got married to my grandfather she worked in a tannery until her health declined (strokes).

I've always thought she was a fantastic woman, mother and grandma. [img]smile.gif[/img]

[ 05-11-2002, 11:44 PM: Message edited by: Cloudbringer ]

My mentor is the iron. It has been my only constant companion since high school. I have had friends and family come and go through my life,I have jumped from girl to girl in a never ending search for the perfect relationship, I have had so many jobs my resume looks like a set of encyclopedias, but since I was in 10 grade I have ALWAYS gotten to the gym to work out everyday. Iron and weights dont lie, they dont go on head trips , they dont judge , they just are. Working with the iron will give you a great perspective because after the 100th girl has told you that "Your the only one" and then left you for someone else, you can go to the gym and know that 200 lbs will ALWAYS be 200lbs. After you work out for a while your body will change and no one can take that from you. You dont have to apologize or worrie about what a set of weights thinks about you. You can truly be yourself and just lift and growl and sweat. Going to they gym has cured me of depression,anxiety,envy,trash talking,fear, and a few other mental defects. The Iron has been my best and only friend for so long that it is the only thing I can honestly name as my mentor.

Sigh... Headhunter.. that's kind of sad! :( I have had boyfriends leave me for others too, but I can't imagine not having my current one in my life or my friends and family. Sometimes people let us down, that's true, but love and happiness aren't necessarily easy or cheap.. sometimes we finally achieve them after the heartbreak or pain is fought through and companionship, friendship, love, trust.. well they are all pretty nifty things to have and experience!

Sorry, your post just seemed so sad to me. Guess it's late at night and I'm in sentimental mode! [img]smile.gif[/img]

You know Cloudy, I'd have to take The Hunter's view on this. I have someone in my life (Love you , Jo !!!) and I have always had a wonderful, supportive family & friends. BUT, I believe that many people rely on others as a crutch. Now, I'm not putting ANYONE down, but the IRON forces you to rely on yourself.

My experiences as a youth proved this to me. My family loved me, but ultimately, it was up to me to get past my paralysis and learn to walk. When it's only you and the bar, the lines in the sand are drawn, and are clear. It's only you against yourself. and the Iron judges you.

After years of therapy, I continued working out for years. I only stopped when I broke my back.

The Iron is a hard mentor (heh, a pun), but it's fair, and ALWAYS objective. It never lies... and makes you quit lying to yourself.

you know, Henry Rollins wrote an essay that echoes The Hunter's words closely.

<font color = lightgreen>My grandmother, who unfortunately had to go home to my grandfather back in October (if you know what I mean). She was always honest, truthful, almost never got angry/upset (or at least dealt with it very quietly), tried to make sure everyone was happy and doing well. She also never gave up or got lazy--she would make everyone nervous when, at 74, she was up on the roof cleaning the gutters! [img]graemlins/laugh3.gif[/img] I strive to be even half the person she was; fortunately, I succeed (well, most of the time [img]tongue.gif[/img] ).</font>

Are you a Henry Rollins fan by any chance? He pretty much says the exact same thing in one of his interviews [img]smile.gif[/img] And it's true, sometimes it's best to keep your mind on a task/goal rather than a person... sometimes.

Its odd..

I have alot of people who would make great mole models, and graet people to look up too.

First, there is my dad. Doesnt talk much, when he does its usally worth hearing. hard working, honest, smart. He has taht aura of mystery about him...But thats the thing, are dads really spouse to have an aura of mystery about them?

Then there is my brother (half) who is, in alot of ways, completey oposite of my dad.

Hes a pretty chrismatic guy. Smart, we have alot in common as far as general likes and dislikes go. So that would be good to serve as a role model. But I dont really see him enough, I see him about once or twice a week.

There is a handfull of other figures in my life that I could consider 'looking up too'. I dont know though.

I havent really been able to really look at them that way.

And the worst part is..

I think my younger cousens look up to me as a role model, witch I really dont like [img]smile.gif[/img]

My dad was friends with the weight lifting coach at my high school in hawaii and we were able to have that whole weight room to ourselves after hours. The iron helped with depression and self esteem and I feel the need to leave one last message to it [img]smile.gif[/img] ......I miss you iron and theres something I have to tell you...We were apart for so long and I have my needs....his name is cardio. Im so sorry iron [img]graemlins/crying.gif[/img]

[ 05-12-2002, 05:16 AM: Message edited by: caleb ]