Ironworks Gaming Forum - a story i wish to share

i got this from my email and as usual would like to share this with you guys. it is a little bit long but.. here it is

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>> >I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
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>> >His name is Jin.
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>> >I always though t of him as a friend until last year, when we
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>> >went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with
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>> >him.
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>> >Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
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>> >love for him.
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>> >And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
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>> >other in different ways.
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>> >I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
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>> >were so many other girls.
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>> >To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
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>> >another girl…
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>> >“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
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>> >“I can’t”
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>> >“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
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>> >grabbing me.
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>> >“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
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>> >He was always like that.
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>> >He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
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>> >To him, I was just a girlfriend.
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>> >The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth.
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>> >Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’
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>> >before.
>> >To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
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>> >He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued
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>> >till 100 days…200days…
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>> >Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
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>> >doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
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>> >Then one day…
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>> >Me: Um, Jin, I …
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>> >Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
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>> >Me: I love you.
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>> >Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
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>> >That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me
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>> >the doll.
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>> >Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
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>> >The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
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>> >one by one. There were many…
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>> >Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
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>> >When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
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>> >and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
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>> >But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was
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>> >dark… he still didn’t call.
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>> >It w as already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
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>> >Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
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>> >and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
>> >house.
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>> >Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
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>> >Me: Jin…
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>> >Jin: Here…take this…
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>> >Again, he handed me a little doll.
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>> >Me: What’s this?
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>> >Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
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>> >to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
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>> >Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
>> >Jin: Today? Huh?
>> >I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
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>> >He turned around and walked away like nothing had
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>> &g t;happen.
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>> >Then I shouted…
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>> >“Wait…”
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>> >Jin: You have something to say?
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>> >Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
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>> >Jin: What?!
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>> >Me: Tell me
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>> >I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
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>> >But he just said simple cold words and left.
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>> >“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you
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>> >are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
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>> >That was what he said. Then he ran off.
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>> >My legs felt numb…and I collapsed to the ground. He
>> >didn’t want to say it easily…
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>> >How could he….
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>> >I felt that…
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>> >M aybe he is not the right guy for me…
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>> >After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
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>> >crying.
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>> >He didn’t call me, although I was waiting.
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>> >He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
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>> >outside my house.
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>> >That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
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>> >After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
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>> >But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on
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>> >a street…with another girl…
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>> >He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
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>> >me…as he touched the doll…
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>> >I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
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>> >room, and tears fell…
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>> >Why did he gave these to me…
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>> >Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…
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>> >In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
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>> >Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
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>> >He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
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>> >I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
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>> >I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,
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>> >that… it’s going to end.
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>> >Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
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>> >Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
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>> >I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
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>> >and joking around.
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>> >Soon, he he ld out the doll as usual…
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>> >Me: I don’t need it.
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>> >Jin: What….why…
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>> >I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
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>> >Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t
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>> >want to see a person like you again!
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>> >I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
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>> >other days, his eyes very shaking.
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>> >“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
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>> >He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
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>> >Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
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>> >throw it away!!!
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>> >But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
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>> >Then…
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&g t;> >Honk~ Honk~
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>> >With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
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>> >“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
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>> >But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
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>> >doll.
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>> >“Jin, move!”
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>> >HONK~!!
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>> >“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
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>> >That’s how he went away from me.
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>> >That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to
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>> >say one word to me.
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>> >After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
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>> >and the sadness of losing him…
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>> >And after spending two months like a crazy person…
>> >I took out the dolls.
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>> >Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
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>> >started going out.
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>> >I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
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>> >count the days… when we were in love…
>> >“One…two… three…”
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>> >That was how… I started to count the dolls…
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>> >“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
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>> >five…”
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>> >It all ended with 485 dolls.
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>> >I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
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>> >I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
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>> >“I love you~, I love you~”
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>> >I dropped the dolls,shocked.
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>> >“I….lo..ve…you??”
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>> >I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
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>& gt; >
>> >“I love you~ I love you~”
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>> >It can’t be!
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>> >I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
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>> >“I love you~”
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>> >“I love you~”
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>> >“I love you~”
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>> >Those words came out non-stop.
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>> >I…love you…
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>> >Why didn’t I realize that…
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>> >That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
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>> >Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much…
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>> >I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
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>> >that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
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>> >It had his blood stain on it.
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>> >The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…
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>> >“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each
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>> >other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t
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>> >say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you
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>> >forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you…
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>> >everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
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>> >The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
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>> >god, why do I only know about all this now?
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>> >He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last
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>> >minute…
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>> >For that… and for that reason… to me… it became
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>> >courage… to live a beautiful life…
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>> >END OF STORY.....